don't ever
judge me.
you have no right too! becos for once i tried my best and ..... honestly, what a jerk.

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GOODBYEmylover says:
its like my fren drive me out on a dinnerdate after sch today.
den i noe he* is at chalet...
den i wanted to noe how is he. cos he hasnt contacted me since sunday! nvr even wish me merry christmas la!
den i ask my fren to drive me ther.

the first time i saw him, i asked him if he missed me....
he said not really...
i got angry, asked him to have fun and left.
den i du lan. wanted to beat him up..den my fren drive me back.
this time i asked if he liked me...
he said not really. ):

then before i cud say anything he asked if we cud break up...
i agreed, his eyes brighten up and said "really ar?" den i just got into the car and sped off. ):

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now thats the end of my heartbreak.
there's closure.
its what i wanted, at least to noe.
before any stupid pinhead wana said i played with him, think abt it.
this time, the player got played.
by the freakin novice at that. (what the hell?!)

anyway i was pissed, screamin in the car, being hysterical. but also very quiet. haha i scared the hell out of GM. but we had fun. driving around singapore. damn, i wish i cud drive too. (:
thanks for being ther for me when i needed sumone.

not forgetting huiying,zhaoyi,meiqin and dinesh.

and fortunately for my partner in crime, we held true to our promise. (:
sorry cant be same time cos he asked me before i cud do anything la! but must rember our other promise? valentines day! (:

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` Zђаό --` quietdrive naivəmo. - says:

when i look in your eyes
and i still feel the same
i know it's hopeless
when i look to the sky
and the stars spell out your name
i know it's hopeless

amnesia, really need ya
i wanna lose my mind
in a place that i won't find

forgetting is hard
when you're the only one
that made things easy
you're the only one that eases me

i remember the times
when my shoulder held your head
and i would wonder
how did they find
such a perfect fit
oh how i wondered
(i never wanted to take you home)

amnesia, really need ya
i wanna lose my mind
in a place that i won't find

so call me now
you know that you want to
i need to hear your voice
to talk me back into existence


i'm a sucker for anything BY zhaoyi. ):
he beats me in art and lit. ):

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$28.----[servanthood]=the act of humility the surrendering of pride says:
maybe he hasnt learn how o love anyone yet
or rather
he has yet to how to really love someone that way and not ready for what it takes to be in a relationship'

GOODBYEmylover says:
yea...i feel played, cheated. as if i was a stand in for him to test the waters.
i wished he cud at least apologise or tell me why he cudnt love me.
i have a feeling its becos he loved sumone else already or i did sumthing wrong or it was a mistake right from the start.

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GOODBYE MY LOVER

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one. You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.I
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

*CHORUS

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

*CHORUS

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

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its time for me to move on,
seeing you had.
there's nothing more for me,
except for the memories,
we shared.
you never loved me.
that's what truly broke my heart.

after today' i'll NEVER blog abt you anymore.

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MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS
(inspired by danielle (: )

1) DON'T ever get a BF from YJC.
i thought that ed wil change my opinion BUT its all the same la! yjc guys just CMI in relationships.

2) I promise i wouldnt insult the GAY chinese dance instructor