THE INTERNET IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!
ITS MAKING EVRYTHING 2378391TIMES SLOWER!!
A R G H!!!

today was animeMANIA +ARTsnCRAFThorror with barbie!
we sat fixed on the couch for hours. (:
i made extra christmas gifts for my DAgirls and damn, i hurt my fingers to "make" the gifts! they were practically peeling off. ):
i did the deco for the dance studio. cant believe i finish evrything! and made my own dress!!! whaha!! (:

anyway went travelling around singapore with gm today. (again)
its like we travelled the EASTarea today and thanks to his incredible bad driving skills we are travelling more than we shud in the car. ):

we WENT:
1) eastcoastpark
2) ikea
3) bedok for dinner
4) oldchangihospital
5) oldchangiroad

we started at 3plus and got home justbefore 10pm. thats' really good timing! (:

at first we went east coast park and it was raining so we stayed in the car. den i got hungry. den we drive all the way to the other side of the park to get macdonalds and den went all the way back to wher we were. we ate in the car and laugh at all the ridiculous people running around in the rain. den we decided to go ikea since meiqin and i are not meeting.
the ikea at tamp is pretty impressive. but it lacks something. anyway we left to some random bedok area for really famous porridge. den we went to old changi hospital. it was damn scary la. i walked for a bit and got too scared already. dun even noe why some ppl can walk into that building. ): den i froze up in the car after he drove up this deserted path and into a even scarier building he said for the mental patients! i cud swear i feel "people" staring la! ARGH. den we drove to oldchangi road to unwind. i was pretty zonk and too terrified to speak wen we reach.

it seemed that being scared made me realise what i wanted with me right then. and the person i wan with me is sumone i can nvr evr have since he doesnt want me.
i miss him.
but he doesnt so why am i fretting over him?

this is US (i was trying to smile)

and scaryME
all this ridiculous ranting says something to me.
i'm really hurt this time round.

when wil i ever get over this?? oh, when???!!!