Friday, February 16, 2007 @10:21 PM
it just really really sucked when you tell someone something really sad that has happened to you and they say..."i've expected it from the start."i dont like expecting that something from the start was a failure!i hate failures.i hate giving up.but i just committed both of themi'm such a hypocrite.FRIDAY was jogathon day!i swear it was a day of hella fun.i woke up so freak ass early at 4.30 thanks to cheepong's call. i jump out of bed, took my things and rushed out of the hse! i swear! i was darn fast! (:haha thats becos i cudnt sleep til freakin oneplus so i packed evrything from my bedroom to outside, in an order that only requires me to walk ard the hse once (:too bad, i wasnt fast enuf for huiying!when she saw me i was still trying to prepare the cake!oh gawd, i screamed..."gobackgoback! pretend u still coming down from the stairs!"i frantically prepared the candle and beckon her to come! (:haha, so its a happycake time with cp and hy!HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIYING!(sorry abt the belated presents!)wented to sit in mac (like a loser) waiting for dan and sab! (:haha, met with the girls and cheers for carina for being early man! (:it rocks that we are having so much fun on the train, but BOO!we are late and we got lost!haha! and some JC1 actually were following us! (:i swear we should have just stay for the hokkien prawn mee than make our way to the jogathon! its so pathetic with so little people, its so obvious so mnay people skipped. ):but thanks we got danielle's mum to bring us there! (:the jogathon was okay la.but i was in a badmood.was hungry thruout the event. (:plus my "bestfriend" won prizes la!aiyo! not happy mah! (:KIDDING!it was hilarious watching the guys complete the run!the girls were hysterical cheering for the guys!haha, SOMEpeople were so funny!u cud see the guys were competing with eachother at the finishing line! aiyo! simply hilarious! esp mr spencer! (: yes, you still looked "oh my god" to me!thanks dan for running with me!not forgetting miumiu and yingmei!we are the runners/joggers!haha! after the run we THOUGHT we could go home!i got lost from the class, almost killed a biker, found another smelly in school...i thought we could go home!!!!till the OLDcheenapok started to thank evryone for the event!"i would like to thank the teachers, the students...."i swear the list goes ON and ON... i swear if she could she will thank the trees, the weather, the rubbishbins!...den it was a LONGbusride with hy, cp and hanesh? (:the bananaprawnmee, the almondsoyabean, the pomelo.den it was bishan shopping with rachel and meiqin! (:oh god i was so tired!!!den i still met cp, hy, isaac, zy, p....stil got who?aiya! i still had to leave early! and cudnt join ya'all.but i'm happy i got home early for the first time in ages!!i fell aslp so fast and cudnt even play when my favourite cousins came to my hse. they even tried wakin me up! but i cudnt move.... -.-i'm so sad i cudnt play with my darlings.saturday was good.homecookedbreakfastcartoons-pokemon!for the first time in months.i finally had time for myself (:watching dancefloor online.oh gawd, i want a partner like vas n pris!they dance so well together! (:platinum was great too.loved the danceSTYLE!jadeseah is a prettyhost!that aside,there are many things i cud have said but dint.baby,dont say you love me.you dont even know me.these few days have been terrible for me.i have been hiding up in my sad corner in the night crying my heart out. i questioned why did i spent so much time on you. i think you were a waste of my time and money. ):i tried convincin myself you were not worth anything and that i should just forget you. how could i have skipped so much dance for you? why did i do so much!ITS NOT WORTH IT!evryone was right.it was doomed from the beginning.but i dint want it to end.it still feels raw.like we are still together.stop loving weixin.its not worth it...but i still do.love you.ah...and thats what sucks!