4march was scary.
i swear sembawang arent a safe place to hang out.


i was scared shitass when that freakin ahbeng wouldnt stop disturbing us.
he was first bangin the window, then he came in screaming senseless at us. he wouldnt stop disturbing us and i was so close to calling the police or my daddy. thank god the staff chased them away. but even when i appeared ok, i was shivering beneath my nonchalent disposition.


it has been almost a year that i haven met anyone beng enough to be called a beng, and today's encounter was shocking enough.


at that moment i thought of who i could call to calm my nerves, i thought of YOU.
but i dint want to listen to the phone askin me to leave a message again, so i dint bother to call.


thankgod for someone else (:
and the guys whom i'm sure will protect us girls if anything happened! (:


but at that moment, knowing i dint have you to calm my nerves, i felt like bawling right ther on the spot. the past week you seemed to have been hiatus. i couldnt get you and i give up trying to. the senseless waiting for you to take the initiative to contact me instead, the unreachable calls, the unreceived n unsent messages in my phone...argh it was damn bad.


what happened to us? was i not important enough to even leave me a spot on your hectic week? would a call at a time that i would be awake kill you? thoughts raced through my head, each one bringin more disappointment. i wasnt asking for much, even u retorted a day a week is way under but hey, what was i goin to expect when such a week like this past?



i'm sorry. i'm just feeling down.



sista i wished we could have another longlong walk back home, you carrying my roxybag and giving me advice.
i just want someone to talk to.



i miss meiqin.
i miss the feeling of being protected so much.
she could always ward of bullies and made evrything allright.
after we got seperated into diff schools, i had to fend for myself.
but i cant, i feel vulnerable, weak from fighting.



wheres my knight in levis jeans hiding when i needed him?



this is not being emo.
this is just being insecure.
well, where were YOU?



i'm sorry zhao for a horrendous bday.
i just wished i could turn back time and suggested somewhere else to go to for dinner.
it's all my fault.







danielle said the play was good!
hurhur, our firstouting on sat! (:
dress to impress my friend!
and march7 was a lie! -.- hehe.







kiss the troubles away, my friend!
its just another week (: