Thursday, May 17, 2007 @3:53 PM
i had a nightmare and woke up at 2am today. i wanted so much to call someone but i was afraid to even move. it seems somehow, to matter how old you are, there is always the fear of a monster underneath your bed, a vampire lurking outside your door or even the boogieman residing in your dreams. so i stared blankly into thin space, in that fixed, uncomfortable position, tryin to close my eyes and coax myself back to sleep. evrytime i do, i recalled my nightmare and my eyes flew wide open in fright.it was a terrible night, a horrific dream.and it made worse by what you messaged me.i didnt know when i sleep i have the reflex to turn down calls. maybe in that gogy state of mind, i may have done so but i dont really know. i'm really sorry and i seek atonement. i'm sorry. i'll never reject a call from you again.please forgive me?