i grudgingly give in to exhaustion at 4.38am, and i know that becos that silly guy who offer to buy me food is still online. sigh, i wished i can bring myself to give in, but i cant. oh that pride, that awful, awful, pride. my head burns with fever, my body unable to cope with this strangling pain. i dont want to go to school, i cant possibly. or am i just making excuses? i'm not going, not going. oh gawd, why must it be like this? i'm sorry okay? i'm so sorry.